Conor J.
Wake
To this tick tock ticked off thing that sits on my wrist
I found you in between love and pain like a backwards Cupid
I treasured you and your broken timepiece
Empty screws and bolts. They were spilt.
Like my blood on the stove, cauterized.
Filled with charcoal and damage
You are him
A gift given
A grain of sand I can’t let go of
I’ve lived 1000 hours just to see you turn
Broken, heartless, filled with fragments of glass I can’t find
Wrapped in a box, short term, what I had with you
Flying like my own, living on my own
Gravity changing the dials on its own
But
Differentiated between perfect and thievery
I don’t own you
I think it’s because I hate your name
What you use it for
As you change as I do
The look you give me
Curling up onto my wrist
Happening all at once is
You
Are
you, your silver plated worn glass sunshine makes me remember times I couldn’t see anything
Totaled.
My mother says I should renew you
Change you
I don’t think she understands the concept of presents
Of memories
Of connection with something that never was
I saw you for the first time in a wrist of a man 40 years of age, but still new
Impossible of how large his wrists could be
Unlike the ones that were slit
I never dreamed you would fall off like pieces of hours
Gone
Time isn’t really something I cared about
I gave up knowing I couldn’t get enough of it. Get enough of my nails digging into my skin
Like Christmas, the smell of bourbon and mourning
But you are totaled, gone, and loved