Cat G.

Tags

nobody knew
Nobody even wanted to know
But I did
If I had know that one day I’d wake up and my best friend wasn’t there, I would’ve made our
time together better
I would’ve cherished the obnoxious sound of tags running towards me
Never yelled at him again
Kissed and hugged him everyday

At least that’s what I would’ve thought
Until it actually happened
No more tags
Or hugs or kisses.
But I seem to be yelling more
Like I’m constantly going down a spiral of stairs and nobody can drag me back up
Every little thing bugs me
I don’t even want to look up to see someone that isn’t even going to be there
And I hate him for leaving even if he didn’t have a choice
I’m just full of this blind distaste
And it this distaste in everything that eventually consumes me until I hold that same distaste for
myself and that’s all there is.

But I cannot change anything. I cannot
No matter how much I want to make sure to treasure his life. His being. His company. I cannot

I will not.
Why waste time trying to perfect something that I know will always be flawed
Because life has its ups and downs and the downs are what made us stronger. Made us closer.

I would not
I would not trade us as we were for the world. The universe. knowing that the original us is the
best us.
And I will carry these tags so that others can feel the joy of hearing the annoying clanking as I
run toward them to hug them. To kiss them.
To yell at them
And they will learn that true happiness and friendship and love
should not be traded for anything